My dream of going to NYC is almost crushed. I said ALMOST because I can still try but I doubt I will get an offer. It's already July. I don't know if I should cry or laugh. It's not them. It's my own stupidity. Time is running out. I wanna scream my heart out. I wanna cry out loud. I wanna bang my head to the wall. Why are you so strict? It's just a freaking envelope. Devastated is the word. I should not have put all eggs in one basket. And now I am crushed. Crushed because I want it so badly.

I know it's not end of the world. I can always try again. But I cannot hide my emotions now. I am just too devastated. Maybe the guy up there wants me to stay with James this year. It's not a bad option :) Maybe better options are coming my way *consoles self* I am a strong girl :)

P/S: *phew* the power of blogging. I feel so much better now :) I can't believe I just blogged myself out of depression :x

My current girl crush is Megan Fox.

I am watching Ocean's Thirteen again :) I lurveeee the movie. I liked Ocean's Eleven and Ocean's Twelve too. Must be the George Clooney and Brad Pitt combo. Hey wait a minute, I like Matt Damon too. And especially Casey Affleck as Virgil Malloy *hearts*

Here are some funny dialogues from the movie:

Rusty Ryan: Are you alright?

Danny Ocean: Yeah, um, I just bit into a pepper.

Rusty Ryan: Is that... are you... are you watching Oprah? With a bottle of wine? Did you TiVo this?

Danny Ocean: I was reading the paper.

Rusty Ryan: With the sound at full volume? [They watch the show, where Oprah gives a family a new house]

Danny Ocean: It's...not just the kids. I mean, I'm happy for the kids. [Rusty nods] How's it going in Mexico?

Rusty Ryan: Well, Turk's there. Are they really going to build her a new home?

Danny Ocean: Yeah, for the whole family. [Rusty also starts to sniffle and tear up]

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Turk Malloy: Are you in yet?
Virgil Malloy: I hate that question.

****

Turk Malloy: Don't change the facial structure.

Virgil Malloy: I'm making you taller. Don't you want to be taller? You're a midget in 34 states.

Turk Malloy: Yeah, well, I'm an animal in the other 34.

Virgil Malloy: [turns and stares at Turk]

Turk Malloy: 24... 22.

****

The famous tagline: When you cross one Ocean, you cross them all.

I also liked Virgil's dialogues in Spanish. So sexy, it started my love hate relationship with Spanish, the language. Too bad I can't find the Spanish dialogues in Google. Maybe I was using the wrong keywords to search. Please please please make Ocean's Fourteen.

P/S: I just realized I am so in love with Virgil, I mean Casey Affleck's voice too. Judging by my bimbotic statements, you already know I can be quite shallow some times haha. Or it could be because it's 2.30am now. I'm still wide awake and most probably high on sugar too :p Have a nice weekend y'all.

Hah! I wished lah.

I only got a taste of fame because Azleena's awesome post on saree was featured on www.sareedreams.com :) Side kick only. Check check it out here.

Talking about fame, Michael Jackson passed away today. I don't know why I feel sad when I heard the news. I'm not related to him in any way but I felt a great sense of loss. Jessie is right, he's finally free of public scrutiny. Rest in peace Michael Jackson.

P/S: My body is still aching from the other day's body massage. Yesterday I went hiking in Cherok Tokun with Jessie and her family. The young ones (3 of us) were whining and complaining all the way up. Jungle trek so susah one. Respect habis uncle and auntie Chiang. Not only they completed the hike effortlessly, they were so patient with us hehe. I felt like a kid again. I have to say the feeling of being treated like a kid is actually quite syiok *big grin* I love it! *jump on it jump on it jump on it*

P/P/S: Did I mention the mini reunion was funtastic? Other patrons of Coffee Bean last night were so annoyed with the noise we made, they wished they had gone to Starbucks instead. Some stayed to enjoy the free "entertainment" also. Don't lie, I know you secretly enjoyed eaves dropping listening to our stupid conversations and contagious laughter. No need to eaves drop also. We spoke so loudly, riuh satu kampung. I also know that a friend of mine has regretted his decision of bailing out in the last minute and missing out all the fun. As a result, he has been demoted to a sticker in Coffee Bean (Facebook). Not even a plastic cup. Tsk tsk tsk.

At Museo Civico di Storio Naturale... I told James this was the Civic Museum of Natural Story. I think my Italiano fail big time.The so-called museum...
We walked from our hotel to Piazza del Duomo... which was a good 30 mins walk :x

The biggest Duomo I have ever seen...
Speechless.
Inside... actually cannot take picture one :s
At the piazza itself. This is my favorite picture. I reckon it to be a perfect ad for jeans. Whatever brand lah.
The shopping mall *grins*
The blue sky very pretty right? :)
Prada, the pride of Italy.
Not real fruits... they are pastries. Looked too good to eat.
Mozzarella di Bufala Campagna... T_T. Tis my favorite cheese now. They look like nipple less boobs to me.
Streets in Milan.
Red smart car.
Orange tram.
Castello Sforzesco shot #1
#2
#3
#4
Train station, Milano Centrale. Eurostar is da best!
James and I spent 1 night only in Milan. Most of the time was spent trying out clothes in Zara. Crazy sales. Dirt cheap. I will never buy Zara stuff in Malaysia ever again :)

We returned to Rome after Milan. Spent another night in Rome before flying back to Penang. Luckily we managed to visit places in Italy during the Easter break because James is doing his internship with a subsidiary company in the Netherlands now. So, I rejected my partial scholarship from IED Milan too *sighs* Not much also, only 20% off tuition fees. It is still too expensive to study in Milan because everything will be in Euro. Also, no point going to Italy anymore since James will not be there. Thanks again to those who voted for me countless times in creativediary.net especially Miss Victoria :p If you ask me, I really don't know where will I be in the next few months but one thing for sure, I'm prepared to leave this place and start afresh somewhere. Am I excited? Hell yeah!! *jump on it jump on it jump on it*

I can totally imagine Keat Joo and I doing this dance... me = Will Smith, Keat Joo = Carlton Banks!

They say Burano is a photographer's haven. I say it's a happy island.Just look at the colorful buildings...
James looking clueless.
Face off.
Fat cat.
Happy or what?? Like candy only.
I can imagine what they discuss about in their mesyuarat jiran tetangga. Okay, your house is yellow right, I paint my house blue then. Eh, pink also quite striking what? Tak nak lah, pink is too sissy. Blue more macho. Alright, I paint my house red. Fiery. Striking habis wei muahahaha.
Smurf's house.
It was a really nice place to live in. Simple life.
I want to paint my house lime green.